Day 5: Vallecitos to Julian: 35 Miles

For the most part, the morning started much like the other three I experienced earlier in the week: 1) 6:00 A.M. wake up, 2) break down camp and load gear into car, 3) service bikes, 4) re-fill camelbacks, and 5) grab some breakfast. Although this list suggests a linear order to each morning activities, the morning generally consisted of doing all five things simultaneously. And, given my inclination to start doing 3 or 4 things at once, I frequently forgot what I had started several minutes earlier, resulting in chaos. Despite being an absurdly bad idea, each morning our ride began en masse which typically resulted in several crashes, near misses with cars, and ridiculously slow riders darting out in the lead later to be overtaken by everyone else. Yes, it was annoying, and frustrating, and irritating, but the feeling I got being in that pack of 150 riders made it worthwhile. Because you see, a line of cyclists several hundred yards long isn't 150 riders, it is a living, breathing organism sharing an incredible moment in time. To serious cyclists, the peleton provides a respite from the wind; for us, it was a few minutes of unity, a few minutes spent exulting our connection to each other, our neighbors, our brothers, our sisters. But after 5 minutes the peleton typically broke apart into small packs of riders--the speedy, the grinders, the gutty, and the the same handful who were always the last to roll in each night, but who inspired us with their determination. Conversations ebbed and flowed with each turn of the crank, but ironically, most of the riding day was spent in solitude. We typically rode in a group of 6-9 adults and kids, but silence commanded our attention. What do I really want from my life? Am I a good father? Partner? Son? Brother? Have I really given all of myself to this life? Will my ass ever stop hurting? Why does everyone at each stop give us the wrong mileage to camp? These heady cognitions kept me occupied during day, but most were forgotten by the time I reached the sleeping bag each night and were replaced with thoughts of what the morning would bring.

Something started and never finished

San Diego county is big and ripe for exploring. After a year of riding within 15 miles of my house, I grown tired of the same trails, the same climbs, the same technical features. Don't get me wrong, if I'm riding, I'm happy, but riding the same trails time after time is akin to opting for the missionary position every time you have sex with your partner---sorry MP affectionados. I don't really do "resolutions" as: 1) I typically fail, 2) I set vague and unrealistic resolutions (I'll be nicer!), and 3) change takes time; thus, can one really "change" heavily ingrained behaviors when 2011 changes to 2012? As a psychologist who has spent over a decade studying human behavior, the cynic in me would say "behavior never changes, we just rationalize, blame and justify better."

Day 4 Ocotillo to Vallecitos: 28 Miles

Jules before leaving the Ocotillo Community Center

Looking Northeast over Anza Borrego

Easy and hot. Short mileage but a warm desert day. I've never been a fan of the desert; however, after spending several days pedaling through quiet stretches of lonely roads,  I began to appreciate the beauty and the silence the desert offers. The colors of dawn to the east as the sun rises over the warming desert floor and the craggy silhouettes to the west as the sun sets behind the peaks of the Anza Borrego Desert. After several hours of riding on the desolate stretches of California S2, we arrived at our lunch respite--Agua Caliente Hot Springs. Needless to say hot springs on a hot day just seemed like a cruel joke. What typically was a quick 45 minute break to hydrate and fuel up ended up being close to a a 4 hour break which is an eternity when you're not really sure how many miles are left to ride. Jules managed to relax at the pool and I complained the whole time about having to "rest" for so many hours in the heat when we could have been pitching our tents at camp while drinking the beers we brought to keep us sane. When we finally received word we could leave our desert prison we pedaled for 3 miles, and like a mirage, our camp appeared around the last corner. We broke camp at Vallecitos Station; an old outpost along the stage coach route between the Imperial Valley desert and the coastal mesas of San Diego. We later learned we couldn't check into the campground until 3; thus, the interminable wait at Agua Caliente. So much for all the complaining. That night the beer was cold. The next would bring unexpected surprises, a trip back to San Diego, and 7 miles of climbing out of the desert.

Keeping an eye on the ants

Regrouping before several miles of curving downhill

Day 3 Holtville to Ocotillo: 53 miles (April 3rd)

Day 3: On the third day of our ride, I had professorial duties and needed to head back to San Diego. Julianna rode solo under the watchful eyes of Doug and Anthony. Despite a much needed respite for my bum, I was sad that I wasn't there and felt like I let Jules down. I could sense it In her voice and her embrace before I left for the drive over the mountains. Of course she did fine but I really wanted to ride all 280 miles with her. At least she can say she rode the whole way but her old man didn't. So as a way to raise my spirits--and let's be honest--a way to show off my awesome progeny, I showed a picture of Jules and myself to my classes. Given the course is a human development class, I could discuss middle childhood and the importance of building self-confidence through goal setting and goal achievement. After switching on the projector and watching the picture slowly develop on the screen, I thought about what this trip means to me as a father, mentor and man. I gave some context to the picture and described what the trip was about and then. And then, as I told them about her determination to do this ride, my voice cracked, and I choked on those three words, "I'm so proud." And at that moment, it all made sense.

Day 2: Gold Rock Ranch to Holtville

55 long miles. 18 miles of 15-25 mph headwinds. Blowing sand across the Glamis dunes. Miles and miles of straight desert road. Jules has accomplished so much in 11 years, but riding a bike 55 miles is a long way for a kid; a long way for anyone. Today, me and the parents of all the other 5th grade kids, are beaming with pride.




Jules at the Pine School at the end of the day 2 and 55 miles closer to the Pacific.

Day 1: Yuma to Gold Rock Ranch

Easing into the ride. 18.6 miles. Flat but a strong head wind. The girls did well but tomorrow will be the real test: 50 miles. We started so quickly that I didn't have time to digest the fact that we're really doing this--that 10 and 11 year olds are doing this. I suppose this is really a metaphor for parenting: it all happens so fast and then all you have is a long, open road with miles of blacktop ahead. Each pedal stroke brings thoughts about those miles travelled and memories of the day she breathed her first breath will push you further along the blacktop towards what has always been within your reach.